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Slowly, Rebuild🧱

With all the uncertainties, battles and struggles life throws at us, it would be a fallacy to claim that you haven’t lost yourself at least once😵‍💫.

It’s a beautiful thing to know that we all are simultaneously at different phases of life⛓️- the times in your life when you feel lost and unseen, others feel like their very best selves🥰 and vice versa. While you’re struggling to rebuild yourself, another is smashing their goals- that’s just how life is🤷‍♀️.

You all should know by now that I rarely share any piece without making reference to myself🙃, my personal experience, I like to keep it real💯. I’ve had life changing experiences that literally left me with nothing🗑; experiences that have made me time and again question my worth, value and essence of living really🤦‍♂️.

Panic attacks felt like a Whiteman thing to me until I had mine, severally☻️. Those were times I thought would never end, I’d cry so much because of how frustrated I was from feeling that I wasn’t making any progress😬, from knowing what my problem was but finding absolutely no solution to it😵. The best word I have to describe that experience is “torture”.

After struggling for months to regain myself, I’m glad to write that being able to publish this post today is a sign of the tremendous progress I have made💃. Imagine suddenly losing interest in everything that brought you joy and pleasure, seeing yourself doing things you never thought you would, all because of an experience that literally ridded you of everything you knew to be true and real, waking up one day to the realization that you no longer know who you are👤.

I’m sure these are words some of you have hoped to hear or read somewhere, someday; words that would remind you that there are people who understand what we have going on❤️.

I just took a deep breath, lol😂, a sigh of relief because I’m finally approaching the part where I get to tell you that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, however cliché that may sound🤪.

We all want to hurry ourselves out of every valley we find ourselves in, when a lot of times there’s so much to learn right in that low😌. It’s quite disheartening to feel like you’re trying to catch your breath😫 at every moment because of how overwhelmed you are, but I can tell you from experience that befriending the storm🌪 is the best thing you can do for yourself. It took a while to accept this but I have no regrets because the depth of growth that has emanated from this singular repeated act is almost extraordinary🤭. I had to force myself to sit in the midst of the chaos until I realised how much I needed to be there👩, and when I did, every trace of haste became history to me.

What I’m trying to say in essence is that you need not rush out of every discomfort or find a temporary fix to every challenge you encounter🙃, the solution is right in the midst of the chaos, all you need to do is tarry 📌. Allow yourself to feel and let the tears lose, do that as often as you need to because that is the beginning of your healing and learning journey😁. Healing takes time, rebuilding takes time but the sacrifice cannot be compared to the result✔️.

On a final note, when you get to the point where you begin to feel like yourself again🥰, when you are no longer sitted but standing in the valley🤗, that’s not the time to start running🙅‍♀️, rather, rebuild slowly starting with baby steps. Rebuild your values, worth, passions, interests and focus, rebuild your person! Trust me, when you begin to run again you won’t even realise it until you have covered many miles😘.

Thank you for reading🤗, please leave your comments behind so we can gist in the comment section, also remember to share if you enjoyed reading this❤️.

Invisible War

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Just like the others, it was a perfect morning. The sun🌞 was glowing in all its brilliance, the clouds☁️ tickling one another as they moved from side to side, the wind🌪 was definitely not going to lag behind as it came with all its glory, carrying along with it the sands of the earth which threatened to sore my flesh😫, my compensation at least was that it remembered to get oxygen from the trees😊.

The outward beauty was immeasurable truly😶🤤, however disappointing that it couldn’t reach the crux of my heart or at the very least give it a reason to smile😔, perfection was probably having a bad day😑.

A walk in the park with a companion👭 might have helped, who knows? But even these companions scarcely came by, and the ones that came by only lasted as long as the morning dew🌫, vanishing in the twinkling of an eye😕; loneliness had gotten the better of me.

Never have my fingers felt so heavy writing a piece, for writing in the moment is different from narrating a story🙂. What can one do when they find themselves in such a fix- Pray? Sulk? Weep? Pretend? All of the above?🤷‍♀️ The war waged in the mind truly surpasses any physical combat🤼‍♂️, getting your thoughts in sync with your emotions and owning up to them is one of the greatest battles that could be won by any man🏋‍♀️.

Winning a battle isn’t always by exchanging blows, sometimes battles are won by letting things be, and doing nothing👩. For indeed it is possible to be alone without being lonely👤, and a walk in the park all by yourself may be all you need to make room for the change you crave.

It was time for the sun to give way for the moon to showcase her beauty🌚, and the stars to erupt in their glory, a silent darkness🌌, a sleepy head😴.

Yours truly,
Anidom❤.

No Regrets

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I usually sit back in my room or may be in the kitchen, in class and even especially in the bathroom to think through and about a whole lot of things. Things of the future and those of the past.

The ones of the past usually hit certain nerves especially those cutaneous ones that carry pain fibres cause as I’ve heard, our brains tend to remember the bad memories than the good ones.

I really used to do the blame game a lot. I used to blame myself for the things that went “wrong” in my life and even those of others sometimes.

I thought about the ‘bad’ things for so long, in anger and guilt most times that it made me realize certain things. I asked myself some questions like “Were you happy when you did this?” “Was that what you really wanted to do?” “Did you feel compelled to do it?” and ultimately, “If you’re faced with this situation again, will you do the same thing?”

The answers I gave myself were answers that pointed to the fact that I had no regrets. Many of the things I’ve done; both “good” and “bad”, are things I’m likely going to repeat if I’m faced with those situations again, so what’s the point regretting?

I believe that life is a process and everything that happens does not happen by chance. There’s something to learn or unlearn when we access or ponder on the things that happen to us and this is how we grow.

So yes, I live my life without regrets and I urge you all to do the same. Please share your views with me by commenting below and share with family and friends. I look forward to knowing what you think about this.