With all the uncertainties, battles and struggles life throws at us, it would be a fallacy to claim that you havenāt lost yourself at least oncešµāš«.
Itās a beautiful thing to know that we all are simultaneously at different phases of lifeāļø- the times in your life when you feel lost and unseen, others feel like their very best selvesš„° and vice versa. While youāre struggling to rebuild yourself, another is smashing their goals- thatās just how life isš¤·āāļø.
You all should know by now that I rarely share any piece without making reference to myselfš, my personal experience, I like to keep it realšÆ. Iāve had life changing experiences that literally left me with nothingš; experiences that have made me time and again question my worth, value and essence of living reallyš¤¦āāļø.
Panic attacks felt like a Whiteman thing to me until I had mine, severallyā»ļø. Those were times I thought would never end, Iād cry so much because of how frustrated I was from feeling that I wasnāt making any progressš¬, from knowing what my problem was but finding absolutely no solution to itšµ. The best word I have to describe that experience is ātortureā.
After struggling for months to regain myself, Iām glad to write that being able to publish this post today is a sign of the tremendous progress I have madeš. Imagine suddenly losing interest in everything that brought you joy and pleasure, seeing yourself doing things you never thought you would, all because of an experience that literally ridded you of everything you knew to be true and real, waking up one day to the realization that you no longer know who you areš¤.
Iām sure these are words some of you have hoped to hear or read somewhere, someday; words that would remind you that there are people who understand what we have going onā¤ļø.
I just took a deep breath, lolš, a sigh of relief because Iām finally approaching the part where I get to tell you that thereās light at the end of the tunnel, however clichĆ© that may soundš¤Ŗ.
We all want to hurry ourselves out of every valley we find ourselves in, when a lot of times thereās so much to learn right in that lowš. It’s quite disheartening to feel like youāre trying to catch your breathš« at every moment because of how overwhelmed you are, but I can tell you from experience that befriending the stormšŖ is the best thing you can do for yourself. It took a while to accept this but I have no regrets because the depth of growth that has emanated from this singular repeated act is almost extraordinaryš¤. I had to force myself to sit in the midst of the chaos until I realised how much I needed to be thereš©, and when I did, every trace of haste became history to me.
What Iām trying to say in essence is that you need not rush out of every discomfort or find a temporary fix to every challenge you encounterš, the solution is right in the midst of the chaos, all you need to do is tarry š. Allow yourself to feel and let the tears lose, do that as often as you need to because that is the beginning of your healing and learning journeyš. Healing takes time, rebuilding takes time but the sacrifice cannot be compared to the resultāļø.
On a final note, when you get to the point where you begin to feel like yourself againš„°, when you are no longer sitted but standing in the valleyš¤, thatās not the time to start runningš āāļø, rather, rebuild slowly starting with baby steps. Rebuild your values, worth, passions, interests and focus, rebuild your person! Trust me, when you begin to run again you wonāt even realise it until you have covered many milesš.
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