She finally had the guts to make the decision that would change both their lives forever🤯. It was the most difficult thing she had had to do in a long time💔. The tears😭 rolling down her cheeks would have filled a bucket if measuring the volume was her priority😞. But no❌, the grief was beyond her control and the hollow that decision left behind was nothing to write home about😫. And with every step👣 she took that Monday morning, Mae wished for the ground to cover up her shame or for the ocean🌊 to sweep it away because everyone knew what had happened; there was no hiding it😪.

A lot of things happen to us, many things we would rather keep to ourselves🙅, for fear of judgement😼, condemnation😾, or perhaps because we don’t even have the words to express them😶 or the right persons to tell👬. The unfortunate truth is that we can’t hide them all, and even the ones we successfully hide may become sun-kissed☀️ someday and our probably “ideal” status, dethroned🙊, and dirty linens out in the open😞.

Just like Mae, I’ve also had experiences that left my self-esteem shattered🤧 and made me question who I am😬. Those nights I would scream into my pillow and drench it with my river of tears😭, living like a shadow of myself💀. I never knew getting off my bed daily would become the most difficult task I had to perform🤦‍♂️, with the thought of the night coming quickly constantly stuck in my mind on those days I managed to get up💁‍♀️, “at least I’ll be safe from the shame for a couple of hours ” I always thought.

It was a slow, scrap that, a very slow process that eventually got me to the point where I became mentally stable😊. It took words of advice from people close by👭 and those I’ve never met🙃, it took prayers🙏 and contentment with being okay not being okay for a while🙂, it took a lot that I probably can no longer recall at the moment.

I just want to let you know that whatever unpleasant thing it is that you’re going through at the moment is temporary😌. You may have had experiences that left you broken💔 just like me, and you may still be having a hard time recovering from them and that’s okay💯.

It may take quite sometime but if you’d remember that it’s okay to not be okay for a sometime😌, believe you can and will feel better🥰, feed your soul with beautiful things that will uplift you and give you hope😃, be intentional about being positive even if it’s so hard🥺, and finally but definitely not the least, pick out the lessons that these experiences taught you✍, cause you may agree with me that there’s really no point suffering now if you’ll have to suffer again in the nearest future for doing things the same way🤷‍♀️ (for those things within your control). It’s always easier said than done, but I think a step or half a day would go a long way💯. Very soon, you’ll begin to look forward to every new day again because your life as it is will be a source of joy and fulfillment to you🥳.

Thank you for reading❤.

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