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Same Coin, Two Faces🪙

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I’m slowly beginning to choke on how much I want to say to you via this blog. Its been so long and I not only miss doing this but I kind of feel sick about it at this point🤢. Trying to balance my career with all the other things I want to do hasn’t been the easiest thing to do.

But for the first time, here I am seated at my reading table at 5:46am writing this piece with my exams just a few days away🤭 because I just remembered how therapeutic doing this is for me, this has forced me to do this for you and even myself at the end of the day🤷‍♀️.

I see so many videos out there about “how to do this” “how to do that” “how to choose right” “how to know when it’s right” and a lot more. I used to watch a lot of these videos in the past and I still do sometimes although not like before. After a couple of years of trial and error, I have come to realise that there is really is no written manual when it comes to these things. It is not a one size fits all kinda thing.

People act like gods in certain areas just because they have succeeded in those things😁, in asmuch as I a thousand times cannot disregard their experiences, sometimes, they really did nothing special, nothing out of the box, nothing you haven’t done a thousand times over in many different ways😌. As it is important to use people’s experiences as a guide to your path, it is also very important to remember that everyone threads on a path unique to them👣.

Two persons can say the same prayer🙏 in the same measure and have the same amount of faith but just one of them will get it in the end, does this now mean that the other person didn’t know what to do or didn’t do it well? That may not be the case. An unanswered prayer may be God’s way of ensuring that you remain on the path He has specially curated for you📌 and His answered prayer to the other person is also His way of ensuring that the other person remains on the path He has curated for him or her.

Many of us prayed to God earnestly and did all we could to “get it right the first time” in many areas of our lives; many of us with our then relatively equal levels of ignorance, childishness and weaknesses. But in the end, some of us got what we asked for🤩 while some others did not☻️. Some work very hard and pray very hard to succeed in their careers, yet there is little or nothing to show for it. Others do the exact same thing and flourish🌿. It is not always black or white, we often overlook the grey areas🕸. There is a place for prayers and hardwork but there also a place for mercy and the will of God.

Comaprison will take you no where and if anywhere at all, backwards without a stutter😩😂. If you look closely at the lives of those with whom you compare yourself, there are certain areas they are struggling with that you do or get with ease, do you think they do not desire such ease in those areas as well🤔? It’s really just same coin with two faces, same situation, just rearranged🙃.

This is not to disregard the place for mentorship, even as you read, I am in search of a mentor🤭. This is just to say that you shouldn’t expect your life to mirror anybody’s. Use their experiences as a guide to avoid certain mistakes🙅‍♀️ and reach your goal faster💯 but ensure that in the midst of it all, you’re not so carried away by their result that you end up missing yours. Let God lead you. Selah.

Thank you for coming around❤️, don’t forget to leave your comments behind😌. Until next time, my people🍻.

Where have I been?😬

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As I write, I have so many unfinished articles saved in my draft, yes, that’s how difficult it has been for me to put pen on paper. I have a lot to write and say, infact I write and say a lot in my written and audio journals respectively, but finding a “good” content to put here has been a very difficult task for me.

I write from my very being, I love it when I can be as relatable as possible, if it were all fiction, trust me, you’d be getting a daily dose of Anidom, but nah, I like to keep it real.

This year has been a rollercoaster, I have never been this all over the place with my emotions in my life, I have lost count of the number of mental break downs I have had in the past couple of months and how often I have felt the need to disappear. It’s quite confusing because I can hardly place my finger on what exactly the problem is.

The year started on a bad note for me because four days into the year, I found out something that broke me to pieces, there I was trying to get it together just for a lot more to slip through my fingers. It’s the fifth month of the year and in all honesty, I can’t even remember most of my plans for this year, pretty much existing and going with the flow rather than living.

Today I can share because I am quite stable now, also because in this voyage so far, I can say that I have learnt and I’m still learning so much about myself and life in general, and this knowledge has kept me going. One major thing I have learnt is “do nothing”.

For someone who likes to control things as much as possible, life has shown me “shege” in the process, there is indeed very little I can control. I have learnt to let go of control and just let things uncover themselves. I’ve also learnt that the only thing I can really control is myself; my mind and my deeds, and I’ve tried daily to focus on that.

Today I write without emojis because these emojis won’t express what’s going on within me, I write today, not as that far-fetched writer who tells you how you can mange your life, but as a person who is trying to manage hers.

Finally, I know that I can’t be the only one enduring hard times, so the essence of this post is to encourage you as I do myself, better days are coming and you are handling your life well, give yourself a pat on the back and keep moving because this is only a phase that will pass before you know it. You may not understand the relevance of this post today but I know that you’ll find its purpose with time.

My next post won’t be a sad one though😂 and it’s coming soon after this, there’s so much I want to share with you😊.

Love, anidom❤.