As I write, I have so many unfinished articles saved in my draft, yes, that’s how difficult it has been for me to put pen on paper. I have a lot to write and say, infact I write and say a lot in my written and audio journals respectively, but finding a “good” content to put here has been a very difficult task for me.

I write from my very being, I love it when I can be as relatable as possible, if it were all fiction, trust me, you’d be getting a daily dose of Anidom, but nah, I like to keep it real.

This year has been a rollercoaster, I have never been this all over the place with my emotions in my life, I have lost count of the number of mental break downs I have had in the past couple of months and how often I have felt the need to disappear. It’s quite confusing because I can hardly place my finger on what exactly the problem is.

The year started on a bad note for me because four days into the year, I found out something that broke me to pieces, there I was trying to get it together just for a lot more to slip through my fingers. It’s the fifth month of the year and in all honesty, I can’t even remember most of my plans for this year, pretty much existing and going with the flow rather than living.

Today I can share because I am quite stable now, also because in this voyage so far, I can say that I have learnt and I’m still learning so much about myself and life in general, and this knowledge has kept me going. One major thing I have learnt is “do nothing”.

For someone who likes to control things as much as possible, life has shown me “shege” in the process, there is indeed very little I can control. I have learnt to let go of control and just let things uncover themselves. I’ve also learnt that the only thing I can really control is myself; my mind and my deeds, and I’ve tried daily to focus on that.

Today I write without emojis because these emojis won’t express what’s going on within me, I write today, not as that far-fetched writer who tells you how you can mange your life, but as a person who is trying to manage hers.

Finally, I know that I can’t be the only one enduring hard times, so the essence of this post is to encourage you as I do myself, better days are coming and you are handling your life well, give yourself a pat on the back and keep moving because this is only a phase that will pass before you know it. You may not understand the relevance of this post today but I know that you’ll find its purpose with time.

My next post won’t be a sad one though😂 and it’s coming soon after this, there’s so much I want to share with you😊.

Love, anidom❤.